Friday, July 30, 2004
intern's bay
Not much to tell about these days, except my great desire of writing. I really liked this blog, and writing in a normal keybord after a notebook is such a pleasure, specially you're writing many fingers (I dare not say ten, but I'm working on it, I'm maybe up to six, seven or eight, actually, I wonder if it's possible to use seven fingers, or has it always to be a pair number? symetrical? yes, I don't really know what to write.)
Coding is an interesting thing indeed (although I wouldn't call myself a coder, let's just say an intern coder) (and I always wanted to use "Indeed" in my writings) (Indeed I did) (I mean it sounds really great, aand yes indeed it does!) (I tend to get boring like this, in - fact I'll just stop it) even though it is about writing, it involves much more reading, especially when you don't really know what you're doing :) I'm quite positive now that every form of writing requires much more reading, my only counter-example being Nietszche, and he is a counter for many examples :)
The good thing about my internship days is that, there are times when something I wrote actually does what I expect (or does just anything) and I work over it to make it better; I get a real pleasure from it, and for that, I should think of myself as lucky, because there are times when I think of my becoming a computer engineer as pure coincidence and now these days I feel myself more or less at home, if you know what I mean. Also, I am lucky because this last sentence makes a bit of sense, yours is a hard task really :)
Another thing with me being accustomed to the internship is that I learned to tie my tie (to tie my tie when the rain rains :p) Yes, I know that you are pretty sure now that I am tie-obsessed, but this has a really important symbolical meaning :) When I said this to my father, his eyes were full with tears for a moment, or so I thought. And just as I get used to be here, it's about to end. (yeah baby! yeah finally free!)
Yes, actually I have a meaningless expection of freedom, when I look from inside to outside (from work to freedom) I have the most powerful desire to be there, but I also know that when my thirst for spare time is finally satisfied, this time I'll be looking from outside to inside (oh, what a brasilian drama is my life!) And no, I don't plan to do anything about this, not anyting foolish like doing a longer internship, no fucking way! I'm just seeing this as a good thing, (and if I were to say, like in the fantasy books, that "this thing is my blessing and my curse" that would be this, my ability to classify some absurd things as good, in other words me, as an intern polyanna :) because, in the future, I think I'll get more easily used to my job, which will be something like these days (I think I hope so, when it is raining and the street is dark, I feel like I belong there and my craving to be out there is happily absent).
That would be all for now, it hasn't been the best blog ever, but I have other things to do now. Thanks for your time though (oh yes I'm very polite :)
Coding is an interesting thing indeed (although I wouldn't call myself a coder, let's just say an intern coder) (and I always wanted to use "Indeed" in my writings) (Indeed I did) (I mean it sounds really great, aand yes indeed it does!) (I tend to get boring like this, in - fact I'll just stop it) even though it is about writing, it involves much more reading, especially when you don't really know what you're doing :) I'm quite positive now that every form of writing requires much more reading, my only counter-example being Nietszche, and he is a counter for many examples :)
The good thing about my internship days is that, there are times when something I wrote actually does what I expect (or does just anything) and I work over it to make it better; I get a real pleasure from it, and for that, I should think of myself as lucky, because there are times when I think of my becoming a computer engineer as pure coincidence and now these days I feel myself more or less at home, if you know what I mean. Also, I am lucky because this last sentence makes a bit of sense, yours is a hard task really :)
Another thing with me being accustomed to the internship is that I learned to tie my tie (to tie my tie when the rain rains :p) Yes, I know that you are pretty sure now that I am tie-obsessed, but this has a really important symbolical meaning :) When I said this to my father, his eyes were full with tears for a moment, or so I thought. And just as I get used to be here, it's about to end. (yeah baby! yeah finally free!)
Yes, actually I have a meaningless expection of freedom, when I look from inside to outside (from work to freedom) I have the most powerful desire to be there, but I also know that when my thirst for spare time is finally satisfied, this time I'll be looking from outside to inside (oh, what a brasilian drama is my life!) And no, I don't plan to do anything about this, not anyting foolish like doing a longer internship, no fucking way! I'm just seeing this as a good thing, (and if I were to say, like in the fantasy books, that "this thing is my blessing and my curse" that would be this, my ability to classify some absurd things as good, in other words me, as an intern polyanna :) because, in the future, I think I'll get more easily used to my job, which will be something like these days (I think I hope so, when it is raining and the street is dark, I feel like I belong there and my craving to be out there is happily absent).
That would be all for now, it hasn't been the best blog ever, but I have other things to do now. Thanks for your time though (oh yes I'm very polite :)
# posted by darcy @ 8:17 AM 
