Friday, September 10, 2004
live and let go
This is mostly an answer to a comment to the previous blog. Firstly, here is the comment, by an anonymous reader who shouldn't get any ideas, because I know him perfectly well.
well, well.. you'll never know who reads what you write down (surprise! I am one of that anonymous reader- community. someone you don't know- and someone who hasn't got the slightest idea who you are. Beware that! big brother is watching you!now, the question is: are you happy? does it make a difference?(on the other hand I must say, we share the same concerns!)
# posted by Anonymous : 5:39 PM
well well... first of all, I didn't know I had an anonymous reader community, but I can already see thousands of people waiting anxiously my next blog :) maybe sometimes they gather around and chat: "oh do you think growing up is closing to the mainstream?" and maybe if everything goes well, at my ten thousandth blog, I will publish a tribute dvd for them :)
Yeah, sometimes I like joking like this, (my keyboard will be auctionned at Sotheby's, starting from 1000£ :) And also, I wouldn't call that exactly "Big Brother watching me", it's more like, me, waving at the Big Brother with a big sign in my hands saying "hey, here I am" (ok, let's not exaggerate, this blog would just be a small sign, but I am sure Big Brother wouldn't have any difficulties reading it :)
And to answer the main question, yes, I am happy, I am and have been happy most of my life, that is part because I am lucky now and I had a lucky life without any major problem, so I don't see any reason to be unhappy, and also, because I am one of the happy people. See, we (happy people) (yes I know it sounds like a Marilyn Manson song, but they were beatiful, not happy. Anyway) we happy people are the ones that lead a happy existence, and as a result we are quite still. As we are generally content of what we have, we are happy and therefore lack the motivaton to change anything in our lives. It would be like Polyanna shouting out loud "what a shithole I am living in!" and moving to a castle in Scotland. No, Polyanna would never say that, and therefore never do that. (did you notice that I like saying therefore? Indeed I do :)
Of course, as we are not full time Polyannas yet, there are times in our lives when we say "that's enough" and probably move to Tahiti to live with native ladies in a tropical climate never ever worrying about money and social status, eating exotic fruits from trees and sleeping on the beach, but even this takes a huge amount of energy, doubt; and the motivation needed to overcome these takes a very, very, very long time of gathering (did you knew that I never, ever, left any of my girlfriends? (Of course you didn't, and if you did, I will simply be just very,very paranoid) All the endings were their choices, although one time we can say it was a mutual decision, but even then, I wasn't the one who brought it up. Oh, and my ego adds that, in my defence, after the break-ups I managed to never call them, never asked to pick up from where we left, (some did) (no I'm not talking about you) (yes I really don't know who reads this :) although now I think that the reason I never called them is that, the call itself would be a decision, a change in my life, and I was happy with the way it was. (I do hope I made myself clear here, if any question arises, you may ask me in the comments, but I really doubt you would bother with that, I know I wouldn't :)
I always thought that, being naturally a happy, depression free person brings with itself some inactivity, for example, we assume that the koalas, or the sloths are happy animals, not the lions, or the fish (although the fish should be happy, since they know everything). And now that I think of it, I wonder, which animal would be the career following type? Maybe the monkey, as they evaluated to the human form. And the dilemma is here, since the evolving type is the monkey, but the happy type is the sloth, so we can assume that career and worldy values have nothing to do with happiness, and we would be wrong.
The one thing that the happy type of person should pay attention is this: How much is he really happy, and which parts of this happiness is self-deceit? If he/she doesn't want to end up in some place where even he can't see himself as happy, he should check every once in a while (how do we write this? maybe "everyonce in a while") if his happiness is real. But then, "self conciousness is a terrible curse" I've read from some friend, and she is right, how can we be really happy while we're always checking ourselves? Can we enjoy anything if we go like "oh do I really enjoy this?"
It is hard to keep the happiness, but, happy people, learn to relax, let go. Really, we all need this.
well, well.. you'll never know who reads what you write down (surprise! I am one of that anonymous reader- community. someone you don't know- and someone who hasn't got the slightest idea who you are. Beware that! big brother is watching you!now, the question is: are you happy? does it make a difference?(on the other hand I must say, we share the same concerns!)
# posted by Anonymous : 5:39 PM
well well... first of all, I didn't know I had an anonymous reader community, but I can already see thousands of people waiting anxiously my next blog :) maybe sometimes they gather around and chat: "oh do you think growing up is closing to the mainstream?" and maybe if everything goes well, at my ten thousandth blog, I will publish a tribute dvd for them :)
Yeah, sometimes I like joking like this, (my keyboard will be auctionned at Sotheby's, starting from 1000£ :) And also, I wouldn't call that exactly "Big Brother watching me", it's more like, me, waving at the Big Brother with a big sign in my hands saying "hey, here I am" (ok, let's not exaggerate, this blog would just be a small sign, but I am sure Big Brother wouldn't have any difficulties reading it :)
And to answer the main question, yes, I am happy, I am and have been happy most of my life, that is part because I am lucky now and I had a lucky life without any major problem, so I don't see any reason to be unhappy, and also, because I am one of the happy people. See, we (happy people) (yes I know it sounds like a Marilyn Manson song, but they were beatiful, not happy. Anyway) we happy people are the ones that lead a happy existence, and as a result we are quite still. As we are generally content of what we have, we are happy and therefore lack the motivaton to change anything in our lives. It would be like Polyanna shouting out loud "what a shithole I am living in!" and moving to a castle in Scotland. No, Polyanna would never say that, and therefore never do that. (did you notice that I like saying therefore? Indeed I do :)
Of course, as we are not full time Polyannas yet, there are times in our lives when we say "that's enough" and probably move to Tahiti to live with native ladies in a tropical climate never ever worrying about money and social status, eating exotic fruits from trees and sleeping on the beach, but even this takes a huge amount of energy, doubt; and the motivation needed to overcome these takes a very, very, very long time of gathering (did you knew that I never, ever, left any of my girlfriends? (Of course you didn't, and if you did, I will simply be just very,very paranoid) All the endings were their choices, although one time we can say it was a mutual decision, but even then, I wasn't the one who brought it up. Oh, and my ego adds that, in my defence, after the break-ups I managed to never call them, never asked to pick up from where we left, (some did) (no I'm not talking about you) (yes I really don't know who reads this :) although now I think that the reason I never called them is that, the call itself would be a decision, a change in my life, and I was happy with the way it was. (I do hope I made myself clear here, if any question arises, you may ask me in the comments, but I really doubt you would bother with that, I know I wouldn't :)
I always thought that, being naturally a happy, depression free person brings with itself some inactivity, for example, we assume that the koalas, or the sloths are happy animals, not the lions, or the fish (although the fish should be happy, since they know everything). And now that I think of it, I wonder, which animal would be the career following type? Maybe the monkey, as they evaluated to the human form. And the dilemma is here, since the evolving type is the monkey, but the happy type is the sloth, so we can assume that career and worldy values have nothing to do with happiness, and we would be wrong.
The one thing that the happy type of person should pay attention is this: How much is he really happy, and which parts of this happiness is self-deceit? If he/she doesn't want to end up in some place where even he can't see himself as happy, he should check every once in a while (how do we write this? maybe "everyonce in a while") if his happiness is real. But then, "self conciousness is a terrible curse" I've read from some friend, and she is right, how can we be really happy while we're always checking ourselves? Can we enjoy anything if we go like "oh do I really enjoy this?"
It is hard to keep the happiness, but, happy people, learn to relax, let go. Really, we all need this.
# posted by darcy @ 3:03 PM 
